Or someone else, but if you're still if you're still haunts me the rationale is it is it still haunts me that I'm going to get locked up in the hospital by him, and I guess it's like weird isn't terrible terrible place, but it's definitely one that I don't want to keep going to so I never did you know keep getting I never did get postpartum care after Rachel other than getting my thyroid retested, but I didn't have to see Dr. Sign for that. I just saw a nurse, but maybe I don't have to see Dr. Sign for birth control. Maybe I can go to planned Parenthood in to talk to someone else. I wonder if planned parenthood takes me medicated medic medicare insurance. I guess I should find out but Anyway, I feel I do feel I actually it's funny never some good start talking about not getting my period. I just started getting some cram so for all I know maybe it's on this way let's let's hope so. but I don't know dad. I just it was a really nice day afterward, and I wanted to share it with you know Chris always Chris told me a few times or maybe it maybe just one time really when I saw him a couple times ago that I should you know try to write when I'm not angry and upset and even though. I'm not writing. This is Sara lee, and I'm leaving a message. I thought his advice for that was good. And I was like yeah, you know. I'm having a pretty good day, and I don't want people to know you know just to hear what they have to say when my name Ri and depressed. I won't people they hear me when I'm when I'm actually feeling okay. You know to like I'm not drowning in the ocean of my own depression and negative thoughts and so hey trade-in so definite eating thoughts late. I want them to you know to hear me when I? You know, but I guess it didn't really say soaring above the clouds. I don't get there very often these days, but at least I'm swimming in my head is above water. You know so I decided to share my good day with you, and I wanted to help I wanted to. Just hope that you were feeling good to wherever you are if you are able to feel anything anymore, and I wanted to thank you for being a part of my day even though you weren't physically with me you were you were there in my heart, and you'll always be near and dear to me daddy. So thank you for being with me today. I'm sure writing up my direct days. I love you, and I'll talk to you later, Hilton hill Samsung.