Tolerate you know what like like being around people who truly want to be with you and lately. I don't really feel like Chris truly wants to be with me. I don't feel celebrated in his presence. I don't. I feel like it's just the convenient arrangement, and I don't want to live my life. You know being a convenient arrangement. I want to be where I have celebrated enjoy. I want to be with people a happy to see me. I want to do a couple of me and appreciate me and and I'm just don't feel any love here anymore, so I you know so I told Kristen to go ahead and be like this, but I'm going to not be able to support you anymore, so I told him that I need him to think long and hard about what he really wants to do and that we should talk about it this evening. So I'm not sure what he's going to call me or not. We're going to talk or not, but I hope he does and I told the way you know. I don't think of you as it is just a replacement bowl cook or something you know and I I know it comes across that way sometimes when I sound angry, but you are really irreplaceable to meet Chris, and I told him that in the message you know, but I said I'm not going to I'm not going to you know go without just because you're going to act. I'd like this you know I said I understand that you're at your house is your safe zone, and my house is nice safe. So and recoat ali understand that but you know I need I need to pick up my food somewhere and powers not really a place to pick it up. So it has to be his house. I said I don't even have to come upstairs in your room. I can just come downstairs to the kitchen and pick it up as long as I know where it's going to be and as long as my name is on this the people in the house to eat it. All you know you got to put your name on stuff. So people don't eat it or else. I just think it's something you know foods. It's been donated to the house, but you know as long as he doesn't at you know. I won't disturb him or whatever so. I don't know what's going to happen dad. I don't know whether he's going to still you know keep helping you with things and whether I'm going to still continue to support him or whether he's going to quit and I'm going to quit. But I hope not you know. I hope that we can you know be civil in that he will still help me out with my food and some of my errands and things like that and overtime. I hope that we could have more of you know them. That is it snow our relationship. I hope that he will. I hope that he will stop putting me in the back burner and that he will. You know let up at some of these stupid ass rule that he's made for me or like no cartoons. I'm like seriously you know I just It's like he's he's always tired. He's always just so run out with exhaustion. But really he's torturing himself like he doesn't need have all these rules in place like he doesn't methodist is necessary. You know none of this is necessary, and I think plenty of parents like you know what their kids in front of a TV for an hour or so they say mom and dad can you know kiss each other and hold each other talk to each other in. Yeah, they are the kids girl fine. You know so I don't understand. I just don't understand. But anyway, Dad.